You told me I was evil

There was darkness inside me

And I believed

I hear the voices in my head

The struggle for grief

The endless pain I am in trying to understand

It’s so easy to believe

I am not a good person

That’s how the story goes

Preachers in their pulpit

Congregating in ancient times

Told my mother and father the same thing

There is evil inside you, they said

And because we were afraid

We believed it

This infestation of shadow

The guilt and fear and shame

Swallow us in turmoil

We are all monsters

Try as I might I can’t change this

My soul burns in blackness

Until one day, I stop listening to the story

Start listening to that inner voice


There are shadows inside me

But there is so much more too

I stopped listening to your story

And listened to me instead

I don’t need your definitions

I don’t need judgment, or even understanding

I realize that I have always been free to be me

It’s time to take the pen to page

I am just a man

I make mistakes and miracles

I try to be the best man I can

I listen to that inner voice that sings

The only evil out there is you

You who tell me to be afraid

You who tell me I am evil

You who say to be guilty

There is no more guilt or shame

I don’t need you

I never did

And that’s the whole of your secret

I am free to dream

I can simply be

There isn’t evil inside me

There is only possibility

Episode 595: Just Joshing Episode 595: Quinn Teechma Just Joshing

#QuinnTeechma #Interviews #JustJoshingPodcast #Photograhy #Acting Quinn Teechma is a legitimate Queen. From crying on her floor to making a six figure income, Teechma details her rise to success and in her way serving the world, by helping women see the queens inside them. All the while talking about the journey that got her there. Been a fan of Quinn since her last appearance on my show, and it was great to have this heart to heart.  Have a listen.Quinn Teechma: https://www.Queenstudiosyyc.comMy Stuff:Alice Zero: https://www.amazon.ca/Alice-Zero-Pandemic-Book-ebook/dp/B08GM4Y8DD/The Cloud Diver: https://www.amazon.ca/Cloud-Diver-Level-1-ebook/dp/B0881HR54T/ Merchandise: https://jpantalleresco.redbubble.comNewsletter: https://mailchi.mp/ea0a0d561d56/lets-get-dangerous Patreon: https://patreon.com/justjoshingpodcast Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/justjoshingpodcast 
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Published by jpantalleresco

I write and I wander. I am currently in Canada, tomorrow who is to say? I just released Veritas, my first comic, done with Craig Cermak and Jim Reddington. I currently write columns for http://www.comicbloc.com and http://allpulp.blogspot.com. I have published essays, worked on magazines and movies and am working on my first novel, graphic novels and am planning on committing suicide on my first feature film. I chase my dreams wherever I may go. When I'm not writing I work on a day job and read, play video games and magic and chase girls. Sometimes I even catch them.

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