The Struggle is Real

So I’m approaching Six months into freelancing. Today was one of those hard days. My morning was great. I’ve had four different things happen in the last 24 hours. I’m getting good at making noise and stuff.

So first off, my latest podcast is up. Trista Robinson was my guest. And you know what? I enjoyed that conversation far more than I realized. Trista is a quiet, easy going, open minded person who I would have no trouble learning bad curse words with. She talked about being in her first lead as an actor, and I was fascinated to learn what would be a role that would challenge her. It’s a really good conversation. Check it out here.

That’s pretty good right? Follow that up, I got myself a new column out at First Comics News. My topic this week was Green Lantern 80th Anniversary. It felt like a nice burst of nostalgia with a couple of really amazing stories. Check out the review here.

And I even did an interview with the Amazing JD Estrada. Oh speaking of which…be right back.

Yup. That’s going to be my new facebook profile too. I did this incredible interview with JD Estrada in which I was the one being interviewed. JD is a cool human being. I love his energy and he’s a creative genius…and a sweetheart. He went to bat for me and I appreciate it. You can read that here.

But wait, there’s more. I mean, I’m doing a lot of good stuff right now to advertise me. Speaking of adverstising, I just did WWC. I did three presentations.

Here’s my presentation on Freelancing.

And I did two more. Here’s my annual Podcasting Presentation from When Words Collide.

And here’s the one I was most excited about, Advertising in the Apocalypse.

That’s a pretty cool list of things.

But wait, there’s more.

This was a pain in the butt to get up there. I worked so hard to get it up to preorder and out by now, but the universe said nope. Here you go. I lost my ability to finish the preorder due to computer issues. But for all my struggles,the book is ready to be pre-ordered. It’s all done. I’m not going to worry about this book anymore. Alice was a wild bit of chaos in the last week to write. Kenzie Carr did an amazing job illustrating it, and I can’t wait for you all to read it September 8th. So go preorder it now with just two clicks. A click to this link, and a click of the button.

And oh yeah, I launched my audiobook biz two weeks ago. I’m changing my whole routine of putting it all together.

So why does it feel like I’m not accomplishing anything?

That’s the struggle. Look at all that stuff I’ve done in the last week. I feel like I’ve done nothing. I’m still leaving stuff out. But yeah, it’s crazy to be in this position.

In my more vulnerable moments, I feel like I’m wandering through fog. I’m not sure what’s out there but I do feel eyes watching me. I have to keep moving forward. I made the leap to go out of my comfort zone. This doubt is normal, and I think I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t have this.

I think I’m doing everything right. Everything I can at the moment at least. So I have to have faith it will go somewhere, and it will, one way or another. In the meantime, I pitch, I narrate, and I write book three this year. Repeat.

Pitch, Narrate, Write, Repeat.

Pitch, Narrate, Write, Repeat.

Just keeping on keeping on. That’s the struggle freelancers have. And the struggle is real. It’s all in your head. Keep going. Keep struggling. Rule 3, don’t quit. Be resilient, be ready to pivot, but don’t quit.

A couple of odds and ends before I head out, if you like my content, be sure to subcribe to my newsletter. There are cool things there if you are interested in more content from me. I’ll be previewing some of my audio work there, as well as a few surprises here and there.

Published by jpantalleresco

I write and I wander. I am currently in Canada, tomorrow who is to say? I just released Veritas, my first comic, done with Craig Cermak and Jim Reddington. I currently write columns for and I have published essays, worked on magazines and movies and am working on my first novel, graphic novels and am planning on committing suicide on my first feature film. I chase my dreams wherever I may go. When I'm not writing I work on a day job and read, play video games and magic and chase girls. Sometimes I even catch them.

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