Get Out of Your Own Way

I know, I know. Not the entry I was expecting to write tonight. I was hoping to write about Alice Zero here. (Counting to Zero is still going to happen at some point.) And I thought that I was going to have at least that short story out the door by now.

Nope. Not at all.

So let’s preface this particular blog with the four rules. I had four rules that I pretty much subscribe to. Show up, do your shit, don’t quit and the rest is rain. Four very simple, compact rules. Then I won the Aurora last year and discovered a fifth rule. The fifth rule is the title of this blog.

But before we talk about that, let’s be a white rabbit for a second, late on all the stuff he promised.

I’m late, I’m late, always so behind…

Nor did I expect to be writing something until my blog is done. With my novel about to go off to an editor, and I’m a million things behind schedule and so far this year hasn’t gone to plan at all.

But it’s not like I haven’t sat back and done nothing. Well, the first week I did nothing. I worked a lot of hours at the day job during Christmas. I thought it was an okay idea to rest. I still feel I got a long way to go on that one, but I did some relaxing. I’ve already got more reading done than I accomplished last year, and I got some stuff published already.

Week two I started to get podcast interviews and more sponsors. I can say I got some cool sponsors coming my way. Stay tuned. Also, I started doing interviews. Doing a podcast in itself it’s about chasing people. I’ve had some cool yeses come my way so far this year and following up has been fun. And the conversations I’ve already had have been incredible.

Still, it doesn’t change that I’m a little behind. I still have a patreon to plan and a book to finish coding and so on and so forth and I just needed to pause and breathe for a moment. I mean sure, I’m a little behind. But doesn’t everything take longer than you expect it to? I feel like I’m not wasting any real time. I’m not wasting time writing about it, I’m not wasting time working on my short stories.

So, upon thinking about what I’ve already done in the first month of the year, I can’t say I’m fully happy with myself. That said, I don’t think I failed. As long as I keep moving forward, I think I’m going back to the right way.

It’s why I haven’t mentioned a final date for the release of Alice Zero or the Cloud Diver. I want them done.

Still, I feel the time tick tick ticking away. It’s important that I keep going. It’s important that I keep working on the things I’m working on. I’m really proud of the tiny book Mackenzie and I created. I’m really stoked with what Lance is doing with the Cloud Diver. It’s sexy. It really is. I’m looking forward to a week of experimentation with ebooks.

But when will it be done? I hope by tomorrow, but it may be another week. Or another. It will not be by the end of February. That will mean I’m too far behind. But I’m doing this, day by day. I’m on the road to freedom.

The fifth rule applies here. I can succeed at this, and will succeed at this, as long as I show up and believe I can do this stuff. I will let whatever momentum come my way, come my way. I won’t try to stop it, I won’t feel like I don’t deserve it. I won’t worry about the hows when these doors open to me, I will worry instead of just walking through them.

That’s it. Get out of your own way when good things happen to you. Just enjoy the moment. Don’t worry about fair, unfair, or deserve or undeserve or any other kind of excuse you run into when you do this. Just go for it. The opportunity is in front of you. Take it.

So now, I’m back to work. Talk either about Alice Zero or my Patreon next week. Until then, stay inspired.

Published by jpantalleresco

I write and I wander. I am currently in Canada, tomorrow who is to say? I just released Veritas, my first comic, done with Craig Cermak and Jim Reddington. I currently write columns for and I have published essays, worked on magazines and movies and am working on my first novel, graphic novels and am planning on committing suicide on my first feature film. I chase my dreams wherever I may go. When I'm not writing I work on a day job and read, play video games and magic and chase girls. Sometimes I even catch them.

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